Day 4

What the hell was I thinking...

Having Goals

I guess some people are happy just cruising through life without any goals. I'm not one of them. I've found that I'm most happy when I'm working hard towards something I really want or need. Over the last few years it's been everything from decorating the house, getting moved from the old town to the new town (of course, AFTER the house was just the way I liked it), organizing the stuff in the new house, figuring out why I was so sick last year, and just figuring out how to be happy. So, essentially since 2003, I've had something to continually work on. I accomplished each of those goals, and now I want to work towards something completely different. I've tried to just relax and enjoy the freedom of not having a bunch of things to do this winter...and I can't. I feel at loose ends and downright cranky. So it's tiime to set a goal. A BIG one. And with all of the things I can't do that other people can, I want to do something that most people can't or won't do.

I love to run. It's physically, mentally, and spiritually uplifting. After I get warmed up, it's like I can just run forever. My mind and soul disconnect and sail along above my body. I solve my world's problems and just live in the moment. Towards the end of a really great run with a full-on runner's high, I'll grin deliriously with joy.

Running is also a connection with my Grandma and sister, two of the most wonderful people I've been honored to have in my life. One taught me how to run, the other inspires me to do more.

So it's with these things in mind that I chose an ultramarathon. Why an ultra? Because everyone tells me I'm crazy to consider running that far. They'll run or urge others to run a marathon, but that extra 5 miles for a 50k is just too much for them. So why not. I've been called crazy before. This time it just might be true...

A new beginning...

I've been through a harrowing many months and when I saw the light at the end of the tunnel, found out that it was daylight, and not another train. So what better to celebrate life than to pick a challenge crazy enough to fit me to a tee.

I'm sitting here watching the most beautiful sunset and I'm tingling at the thought of actually writing down my goal...

Goal = Ultramarathon.
When...2011l
Pace...to be determined.

Stay tuned...